The cat that slept on a bookshelf

Look here

This is quite simple

Just look

See the black letters staining all this white

Look at all the tiny ants traveling miles and miles trying to deliver what I have to say to you

In a whisper

It´s is not so tricky

It comes with the rain and then it´s washed away

It´s my love that may be a little too much

Or not shy enough

Or it may not translate

Look

Just see it in my eyes

Where no words can name a thing

Where there is no language

Where there is just

Love – or what I think this is

A word that says nothing at all but embraces it all

It´s this big bubble full of stars and shadows and memories that can make us cry

It´s this very comfy pillow that you used to like so much and that reminds me of you

It´s the invisible space between your arms and my back

Look deeper and deeper and you will find the intense blue end of the ocean where we will stand until we are ready to bounce back up

Between the clean waters and the silent endless mystery that cannot be named

Hear the music climbing from the middle of the earth up through your bones and reaching your nervous cells, giving you goose bumps, making you shiver like a wintery storm… feel your teeth cracking beneath your cheeks

You are terribly scared

I know

I can tell

And maybe I am too, you see…

See… it´s is not a thing what we are looking for

It is a word

The one that will name what we are going through…

Is it a puzzle or a big impossible knot tightening in the middle of our chests?

I don´t know what I can give you or what you have for me

But does it matter?

Is it worth the sleepless nights and the anxiety attacks?

I just want you to look at me

And

See

Me

Beyond the shadows of your fears

Just reach out of your tight shell

And break my emergency glass

And make me alive

Feel my warm hands trying to caress your skin

Let me burn your lips with my intensity

Have my name tattooed on your eyelids and leave me bits of yourself

Taste the salt of my hips

Make me addicted to your ways

Have me all

I am not a fearful creature

When you touch me I become this helpless cub – I cannot harm you more that you can kill me

I just want to curl up in your lap and sleep for days but it looks like you are always sleeping first

I want you to look after me

Stay awake

Stay awake and save us